NEO ends.

NEO stands for New Employees Orientation, a mandatory 7-day training in the bank where I'm now employed. It started last week and ended today. So why am I telling you all about this? Well, I just want to share my thoughts regarding the way I handled this 7-day training.

Imagine a fish being sent out to a group of starfishes. Yeah I know, my analysis seems kinda weird but all I want to say is that I felt like I do not belong on the first day. It was mainly because most of them are products of the bank's one-day hiring, they've been all together since that day and majority are cliques coming from the same university in college. And so I felt like I was an outsider. For the nth time, I was the ultimate anti-social, introvert, quiet-type person during the first few days of training. I was a bit hesitant to befriend them because they've already established a relationship and you know, the system will go wrong once 'change' comes into that system. Well I hope you get my point. I didn't want to be a nuisance and so I chose to be all by myself--NOT SO ME!!!

As days of my EMO state went by, I discovered myself mingling with these people, telling them some of my life's story and at the end of the day, IT FELT DAMN GOOD. I felt like a doggie being sent out of a cage. :D

And so the 7-day training ended and sadly, I wasn't able to establish a 'stronger' bond with my neo-mates since it's really too late for me to do that. But the good thing is that I had some of them added to my Facebook account. haha and I swear, I won't be suplada when I see them around the workplace.

getting started.

I always belittle my writing skills mainly because I don't really have a good command of the English language and therefore, that makes me a writer that sucks. But I came to realize that writing my thoughts, whether it may be on paper or online, is something I am fond of doing occasionally--especially if I have random thoughts which I think should be materialized (Uh, be seen and read perhaps so that I could decide if they're worth reading or not).

My colleague asked me one time if I blog and I said no. He asked why and I told him that I am not a hardcore type of individual who writes online every emotion he/she is feeling at the moment. Well those really are the ones who have the skill and passion and the mood to do such on a regular basis. That's definitely not me cos most of my sites are like white elephant projects. I tend to get bored easily so I just cancel those accounts after a year or two of dormancy and I am quite unsure and afraid if it's gonna be the same with this account.

Anyhow, I am glad I have something to do after work or when I'm bored--at least I know I'll be doing something productive even if the inputs are worthless.

Why karambola as the blog title? that's how cluttered my mind is. ALWAYS.

Have fun reading my blog, reader. I'll use English as much as possible. (I'm gonna need practice for work. hehehe. :D)